Rain, Rain, Stick Around...

Huh....so much has gone on the past few days, it's hard for me to remember what all has happened. But that's probably my attention deficit showing...or my lack of writing everything down.

So I got my housing arrangements for USD back already, and I get to room with Keather. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. I know I'm happy because I requested her as my roommate, and I actually know her, so I know I won't risk ending up with a psychotic roommate. Am I leaning on her as a crutch? Probably, but I can betcha she is too, and with that I don't feel like it's a bad way to go. However, my one concern is how many men she's going to cuddle up to. As in 'Will I even have a shot with her attached to me during college?'....Seriously, if she falls into another guy's arm like she did with Spencer, I am going to stare directly at the guy and roll my eyes. I WILL fight, don't get between me and my men...to put it frank, get your own taste in men, dammit!!

Oh, I've also gotta go to this Fast Track thing for registration/orientation. I'm really...not looking forward to it, really...I apparently have to take this math placement test to see where I fit for math smartness. Meh, I have a feeling I won't do on it anyway, as it's SUMMER. Testing is out of the question in the summertime. Plus, I think I'll be on my own for most of orientation. It's like just dropping me off on my own in the middle of nowhere. But oh well, I had somehow suvived a similar situation with the journalism camp, I can do it again. At least this time it's only a day long.

It's raining out today. Which has made it really cold out. I hate cold, I'm so small and I have such little fat that it doesn't insulate me enough to stay warm. But I like rain, it's pretty--at least when it's actually falling. Also, I like the sound of thunder...it was really nice, and it's even nicer with the front door open. :P

I sarted working on this quilt I had cut out (mostly) a while back. It's called Pixie Stix, and the colors for it? Awesome! Pink and blue, with the pinks having hearts on them. So cute, not gonna lie...but so totally not me either. And yet, it calls to me...but anyways, it's coming along nicely. Just gotta finish the corners on 4 blocks, and put together the last 4. :)

I'm also realizing that I can't really be left alone in my head for very long. I need some sort of distraction, something to ground me. Usually what works best is my friends and family, spending time with them. When they're around, they won't let me retreat to my head...they remind me that I'm not worthless, that I am NOT the reason everything has fallen apart. Other methods of distraction include shopping, writing, and Sims 2. Reading also helps, but I've been so distracted with other things that I haven't really done much reading. But the sewing, the Sims 2, all of it distracts me from thinking. Because when I start thinking, it goes back to Jackass and my cousin....then again, typically it also falls prey to anger. Scinareos run through my head where I prove them all that I was right, that they're assholes and ignorant--which is pretty true, but brings my attitude down. And I'm sick of the anger, the crying, all of it. I'm going to have a party in my head when he leaves instead, I just know it.

Then I also had an interesting conversation with one of Jackass's friends, Aaron. The dude is really cool, I'm glad we had a chance to talk. Granted he seems friendlier towards Jackass than I am, but I thouroughly enjoyed his response to Jackass when he ended it with 'Bitch'. He also begain it with saying "Humane and Wuss should not be used in the same sentence if you really want to keep any friends", or something to that effect. But I liked the Bitch at the end! :)

And speaking of writing as a distraction, I went back to writing! Primarily about Zeke. God, I love Zeke...my sexy Daimon vampire prince, you....the Daimon part is only from when I first 'got' him....but hey, he's very versatile! Buuut anyways, I've gotten his story to move along a little bit, but I need some sort of conflict to arise...I'll see how that comes about.

I'm itching to go back to Sims 2. I've started poking around to look at new laptops, seeing which ones might run Sims 3. But with all that I've heard about Sims 3, I'm not sure if I want to jump right out and get it. Maybe till more patches come out, it sounds like it needs a few...and Sims 2 is just as entertaining, I still love it! Plus, I'm really going to need a new laptop when I head off to USD anyway, so might as well come prepared.

Give It Time, Bitch

"Zeke’s leg twitched as he yawned and stretched his muscles. Immediately, he felt surrounded by limbs and warm skin, yet took some time to name who was where. Cracking an eye open, he was greeted with Lbb’s sleek hair. She was still sound asleep from the small puffs of warm breath against his neck. He grinned and stroked the base of her spine where his hand currently rested. Another exhale brushed against him, this one at his back. Zeke glanced over his shoulder to see Ryder on his other side, one arm tossed carelessly over Zeke. Gingerly grabbing his wrist, Zeke lifted his hand away when Ryder sighed in his sleep and turned his back to Zeke."

Yeah, I ended up digging through my old files on the computer, and stumbled across this piece of work. And yeah, there's more where that came from....all of it, actually. However, Remmy wasn't so lucky...I have about a paragraph and a half of his stint, but I don't know if I ever finished it....and if I did, then there's no way of getting it back. Our message board was taken down months ago. Doesn't bother me really, I can always write newer, better scenes.

And why yes, that is my Ryder greeting you there on this post! I just might greet you to Zeke and Remmy later also....plus possibly even post the rest to that scene....

As for the awesome title, that came from the awesomeness that was Fuddy Meers. And I have to say, I LOVED IT! Richard was amazing in the play also, which makes me glad that he's coming down to USD with me. Sweet!

And on a side note....Sure, you thought you got to know me. THIS, however, this is only known by a rare few.....when it comes the time I show this to the one who really, truly loves me and I can trust them with absolutely EVERYTHING, that is when they can say they knew me. But you don't...and you never will.