It's a Beautiful Day... :)

Touch me

Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have, you don't need it now...

Today's looking promising...not a single cloud in the sky, literally. It's so bright and sunny out, I absolutely love it. We planted flowers today, so I'm looking forward to uploading the pictures I took of them. Just hope they turned out, sometimes they look better on that little screen than they do on the computer.

Best part was actually just lying in the grass....the sun was so warm, and my legs. Ack. As white as my socks! But that's all right, I've never really been able to tan...but I really needed the sun, so I'm itching to go back and do it again.

I'm really looking forward to Chantel's open house later today! Hopefully they'll have the pool ready, I want more of the sun--the water will be just another plus. And if not, then I'm lying in the grass or something.....Oh, and I have a new pair of shoes that I'm also looking forward to break in! I think they'd fit very well with the whole swimming-sun-summer vibe that is today....and they're also perfect for weddings. Primarily Aaron's coming up at the end of June. Now I just need to recruit Chantel for a shopping day so I can look for an outfit...yes, I'm basing an outfit on the shoe color. I'm a girl, I can get away with it! :P

I really should bring my camera with me for her open house also. That'd be nice.

I guess I've been pretty productive the past few days too. I finished Lover Avenged this morning, which is always good/bad. Good is pretty obvious (I finished it finally), but bad because I am now done with it. No more newness, it's all re-reading from here. Sadness.

Then I finished my drawing of the ever-sexy Rafael. I'm not all that happy with it....mostly when you put it side by side with the original....meh. But I tried.

Tis all for now. I'm off to contemplate changing into my swimsuit and head off to Chantel's!

You Just Don't Get It, Do You?

I find it fascinating how you open up so easily to me, how you tell me the stupidest stuff. All that your girlfriend should know. But does she, really? I doubt it.

I know everything about you.

Your favorite flower is the rose. The reason it's the rose is because your favorite book is The Dark Tower by Stephen King. Stephen King's your favorite author also, because you've read as many of his books as you can swallow--including Lisey's Story, where you came up with my nickname of Babyluv....not real creative, but sweet....fucker.....I also know your favorite color is green. I know you adore The Andromeda Strain, but can't find a copy you can buy, much less rent. I can't name your all-time favorite song, but I know three of your top bands are Dream Theater, Tool and Coheed & Cambria. I know that you really want a tattoo, and when you do get one it's going to be a rose. I know you're a closet nerd, because you love to play videogames as much as you love to go outside and have adventures. I know you love soccer, but gave it up for wrestling. Why you did that is beyond me, because frankly you suck at it. Yeah, I get the whole friends thing, which is why I also know you're a clingy little bastard.

I know you adore science, and want to go into the science profession when you go to college. I also know how practical you think, because you say if you can get instate tuition in Utah you'll stay there for school--'cause it's the affordable, practical thing to do. The practical approach, however, is the reason you broke up with me. It's the reason you should beak up with my cousin. But you don't always think practically, either. Which is why knowing you is so fucking confusing.

You've told me about you pushing all the sand in the sandbox to one side when you were little. You've told me about living in Rochester and your friend Chris, who was a really cool kid when I met him. And you've told me some pretty stupid stuff, including the atheist club you thought about starting with a friend--in which you would go around crashing churches to spread the atheist word. God, that should've been the breaking point, the one where I walked out, rather than you dumping my ass twice. But that was my mistake....

I also know that your dad was from Pennsylvania, which is why you always cheer for the Eagles and other sports teams from the area. You're not necessarily a football fan, though; you prefer soccer, the sport you were so damn good in....the sport your dad coached....you're a huge Manchester United fan, but you have a small soft spot for Brazil, because you've got the country flag hanging in your room. The room where we spent one night texting for two hours, talking about your new bed that squeaked....fuck, I hate those memories. The good memories. And no, I haven't deleted those texts from my phone yet either....

And most recently, you admitted that when you retire, you want to sail. "Sail, sail, sail." Sailing in Minnesota.

I know EVERYTHING about you.

And because I know everything about you, I feel comfortable stating that you don't really love my cousin. You date her because you can't stand being alone. And you don't want to get too close to her, because you'll be moving. She's a cheap thrill, a quick fix. But a quick fix won't ever get you well.

Yet you know so very little about me. I can bring up the name Zeke, and you'd have no clue who or what I was talking about.

You're such a coward. A needy, clingy coward whose only defense is running away. Or, as you call it, "refusing" to fight. But there's no covering the wolf in sheep's clothing, is there.

Is Sexy Worth the Hassle? Oh Hell Yeah.

Stubble.

It's so fucking hot.

But so fucking hard to draw.

Ok, so the facial hair isn't the only problem. Hair is also VERY difficult, especially when there just HAS to be little shiny strands reflecting back. Seriously, it's like I'm staring at the photo going "WHY?!?!?! Whyyyyyy must you be so freaking sexy and so very frustrating at the same time!!!"

I'm wishing I got a white pencil. Technically I do, however I call it chalk. Chalk and ebony pencil....I'm scared the combination won't turn out so well. Also, I feel like I'm cheating if I grabbed a white Crayola colored pencil to draw it in.....

Ah well. I'll just bitch about it till I'm done, then either continue to bitch about it when it's done, or go "Hey, that didn't turn out so bad!"

More than likely it'll be the first.

But at least it's freaking sexy hair, 'cause daaaaaaaaamn.....Rafael, so sexy.....so worth it.....

Give It Time, Bitch

"Zeke’s leg twitched as he yawned and stretched his muscles. Immediately, he felt surrounded by limbs and warm skin, yet took some time to name who was where. Cracking an eye open, he was greeted with Lbb’s sleek hair. She was still sound asleep from the small puffs of warm breath against his neck. He grinned and stroked the base of her spine where his hand currently rested. Another exhale brushed against him, this one at his back. Zeke glanced over his shoulder to see Ryder on his other side, one arm tossed carelessly over Zeke. Gingerly grabbing his wrist, Zeke lifted his hand away when Ryder sighed in his sleep and turned his back to Zeke."

Yeah, I ended up digging through my old files on the computer, and stumbled across this piece of work. And yeah, there's more where that came from....all of it, actually. However, Remmy wasn't so lucky...I have about a paragraph and a half of his stint, but I don't know if I ever finished it....and if I did, then there's no way of getting it back. Our message board was taken down months ago. Doesn't bother me really, I can always write newer, better scenes.

And why yes, that is my Ryder greeting you there on this post! I just might greet you to Zeke and Remmy later also....plus possibly even post the rest to that scene....

As for the awesome title, that came from the awesomeness that was Fuddy Meers. And I have to say, I LOVED IT! Richard was amazing in the play also, which makes me glad that he's coming down to USD with me. Sweet!

And on a side note....Sure, you thought you got to know me. THIS, however, this is only known by a rare few.....when it comes the time I show this to the one who really, truly loves me and I can trust them with absolutely EVERYTHING, that is when they can say they knew me. But you don't...and you never will.

Purring Up a Storm Here....

I swear, the world is out to get me sometimes.

A while back, I stumbled across this amazing book cover, created by the awesome Anne Cain. Thanks go to the author TA Chase for showing off the book, because I fell in love very quickly--all because of a hot cover and even hotter excerpt. Pawprints had me enthralled for the longest time, and even spurred me to beg for Pawprints 2.

Which was exactly the problem. I needed to rely on my friends (and holy crap, are they the greatest friends I could ever have) who just so happened to have a credit card, and were willing to use it to get those ebooks for me. I thought I'd be safe, that Cain wouldn't come up with more following those two. I really didn't want to beg for the third one....I feel bad, like I'm using them even though I'm eternally grateful.....gahhhhh but guess what happened.

A third book came out. Returns to Lal and Adrian, those two characters I fell in love with from the start. And I'm absolutely torn, because I know this one will be just as awesome as the first....Anne Cain just doesn't disappoint, ever!!

And yeah, that cover art is as fucking hot as the first.

.......

Ok, I take that back. The third cover is even more fucking hot than the first. Shitttt.....

Me want. Me want REAL bad.

Me want this wrapped up underneath my own Christmas tree with a hot little red bow. Or black & white bow, that'd be pretty fitting also. :P

So I'm Already Gone.

AHHHHHHHH!!!

Kris won. But I don't feel so bad that Adam lost; Kris' first single will now be a cheesy song written by Kara Diguardo, and Adam's going to get an album anyway, so no worries!

Now it's just for the wait to see who all will get an album put out and when....I sure hope it's soon....woot!

Today was all right. Didn't drown today, or at least I don't think I did....But I got to see my grandparents, so that was always awesome! Then lots of shopping downtown. Never thought I'd find my kind of blending sticks there over Michael's, but they did. And for some awkward reason, I could NOT find a stupid ruler! A FRIGGING RULER, come on!! It's a foot long, 12 inches on it. It should be so damn easy to find it that it'd make me giggle. But nooooo.

And on top of the rulers, I looked at drawing pads. Of all the sizes they had, the closest to 12x15 was ONE INCH OFF. Seriously, 11x14. Come onnnn!

But I settled with 9x12. So that should be pretty easy with the conversions. Better than 11, that's an ugly number. Tis a prime number. Bleh.

So ya, that's today...and I got to do plenty of reading from Lover Avenged. Not gonna lie, it's getting seriously hot....yesssssss! :D

And I really wish we could just get one itty bitty scene with Blay and Qhuinn. Not the silly little kiss from earlier. I mean moooooore....ok, more kiss, I don't care, I just WANT!

See, told ya they're hot.

And why yes, I did make that! :D

Buuuuut anyways, I'm digging the series again. Yeah, I wouldn't really mind buring Vishous's book for what Ward did with that, and since then the series kind of went on a downward spiral. But Rehv and that barb....oh hell yes.....

Such a Mad, Mad World

Ahhhh it's Wednesday....not quite drowning yet, so that's a good thing. :)

I went out to eat today at the Cracker Barrel, then made a stop at B&N and Michael's. Damn, I usually love to walk out of a bookstore with at least one book. Not the case as of late though, I feel guilty for not reading the others I already got. But I got some ebony pencils at Michael's, so yay for crafts! :P

And IT'S AMERICAN IDOL FINALE NIGHT!!! *purr*

I really don't think I'll be all that disappointed if Adam doesn't win tonight, though. It takes a certain taste in music to enjoy him; on the other hand, Kris has got the pop edge that American Idol strives for.

Either way, an amazing artist ends up winning tonight. Even if I'm not a fan of Kris Allen....who's kinda cute....but not in the smokin'-Adam-hot way....mwahaha..... :P

On another note, I was also not disappointed with how Dancing with the Stars ended. YAY SHAWN!

As awesome as Gilles was, I think Shawn turned out to be a formidable opponent...I mean, come on. She's an Olympic champion, and the same age as me. I can't help but not be disappointed!!

Not to mention I know what both of them were thinking...
Gilles: "Oh man, I'm going up against the Olympian. She's got basically all of America on her side."
Shawn: "Oh man....really man....look at him, he's really kinda cute....no way I've got a chance against him, little me against him? He was REALLY good at dancing from the beginning too!"

However, I'm pretty sure I know what the professionals were thinking too....
Cheryl: "Whoa, I swore we didn't have a shot when we first started...Gilles is a really good dancer, but I have no clue where all those fan votes have been coming from! And to be this close to a third championship....whoa...."
Mark: "Holy crap, we're up against Cheryl. We're gonna lose, we're gonna loooose...."

What the professionals didn't know was that they too have a fan base....come on, Cheryl definitely formed her own fan group, so she had a strong chance. And don't forget, Mark's got his Ballas-Hough Band with the other dancer! Soooo throw in all the possibilities, and it explains why there was a 1% difference in the combined voting/dance scores....

Melissa didn't have a chance.


Man....now I wanna go play Sims 2.....hmmm how to find a way to peel myself off of Facebook....argh, my archnemesis the Facebook.... :P

Ah well, I'll find something.

And I sorta wish it was Sunday again today. :/

From the Low, to the High

Hehehe.....I'm in a good mood now.....see what I mean when I say I can be bipolar sometimes? Meh. :P

I did have a headache earlier, so that was kind of a mood killer earlier. But then I took some aspirin and a computer break to do some reading and a verrrrry light nap, which turned around my mood. Then my awesome response to Jackass's retardedness was commended by none other than the new girlfriend and another woman who I do not know....but when the response is "pwn", ya know you did good. :D

Stupid reason to make me happy, but it did....damn, what a sad state I'm in.....

Annnd now I'm a half hour away from American Idol, YES! However, I'm not sure when Dancing with the Stars starts.....mmmm, Gilles.....just gonna say it now, so fuckin' hot....

Sooooo anyways, mostly now I'm just looking forward to American Idol! And yes, a bit for smokin' hot Gilles too.

Oh, and Rafael Lazzini also has helped to brighten my mood. Yessssssssss.....evil grin ensues......

And while speaking of other hot guys: I really think Rick from American Chopper needs to keep the sexy long hair. Mmm...

Ok, fantasies aside, dinner is ready!

Trying Not to Drown

I'm having one of those days again, and it feels like it's coming on way too early in the morning...

I am usually either having a totally awesome day, or a shitty day where I'd rather curl up in a ball and die. Then I start rationalizing with myself in my head, which will either make my mood better or worse. Typically, it makes it worse. In truth, I think it's because I have very little self-confidence while at the same time knowing that I'm very much capable at anything. I know I can write, but my confidence tells me I suck. I know that I'm not the most unattractive girl out there, but my confidence tells me that I'm not much of a catch, no matter what I do.

So today I tried to tell myself that my failed relationship wasn't my fault. He was the one to ask me out, he was the one to break up with me both times. But at the same time I feel like it's still my fault for what happened.....NO. Whatever "intensity" I showed, I will show to any man I fall in love with. Just because you don't know what the fuck love is and never will, doesn't mean that I don't. So get over yourself and get your life figured out--you won't be there for her when you move to Utah. Both of you are wasting your time--especially you, my blood cousin, because he's just a boy. You deserve a MAN, a nice tall man who knows what sex is. :P

But at the same time, I'm slowly gaining a crush on a guy that I've only met once...and is going all the way to the East Coast for college. Even farther than Utah. And in the meantime, he doesn't even live in town....the closest I'd get to seeing him would be if I make it to church. Which I can, but it's not as often as school or something like that...ha, school's not even in session anymore. It's now OVER.

Graduation went well though. I didn't go to the senior party, but I don't really care. Had I gone, I would've been up till 5 in the morning and most likely crash at Chantel's place afterwards. Instead, I went to HuHot for lunch with the family, and got my first ever checking account with $2,000 freaking bucks put in it right away!! Holy crap....I don't want to spend any of it. NONE. I just wish I could get interest on that baby....

But today? Today, I'm on the verge of drowning again in my pathetic sorrow and anger that I shouldn't feel....my life is pretty damn good, and void of an asshole of an ex who I don't have to deal with anymore--he's my cousin's problem now. And as happy as she might be with him now, she too doesn't see who he really is...same as me, when I dated him. I'm not going to lie, it was an amazing time when I was with him. And he has said as much, and more. But who he is when in a relationship is the Hyde to his true Jekyll form...

I'm glad to be rid of him now, though. Why? Because for the first time in months, I can sit back and look at men and actually see the HOTNESS. Holy crap, I'm just one more step closer to who I was before I started dating him!! I can finally see again! And I mean that literally, really....before, he had been all I could see. Anyone else, I really didn't care. But finally, I can see that other men are a LOT more attractive than him. And that makes me feel reeeeeally good....

Granted that leads to yet another problem: a certain friend who doesn't know how to find her own man. Yeah, I screwed up and pointed out that one of the guys was kinda hot at Phil's open house. I screwed up by letting her make the first move on him. And even though I warned him that her clumsy falls are all a ploy, he screwed up and just might've fallen for it.... Dammit, I wish she'd stop trying to take her friends' guys...otherwise, USD will be rather difficult to handle for me. :/

Which is why I'm pretty glad that she doesn't go to my church. I'd feel especially pissed if she went after this other guy who I think I shall keep nameless...for now...but he sort of makes me want to go to church just to say hi to him again....meh. :P

If you haven't guessed, I talk a lot. A lot, a lot. Or at least it takes me a while to vent. But anyways. Back to the sexiness that is Rehvenge! :D

Open House Madness. And Boys!

Ahhhh....it's late, and I'm really tired...

So Chantel was gracious enough to drive Mercedes, Keather, Danny and me around today while open house hopping. It was awesome!! I got to bother Matt at his open house, pick at him for our neighbor kiddie days, especially for the lack of caffinated soda....he blamed that on his mom though. Sheesh, what's with boys and blaming things on their mothers?....even Jackass did it to get out of being there for me when my grandpa died. Jackass....yeah, I'm renaming him to that. It blends so well with his last name anyways. :P

Then we sent love to Courtney, Marley, Phil....lots of people really....ohmigosh, I even got to say hi to Josie and Jenna!! :D Plus this cool guy named Charlie who was at Alex's open house...dunno who he was, but he was pretty funny. I had a weird Sherrilyn Kenyon vibe with him, like he'd make a good Daimon/Dark Hunter dude....haven't had one of those moments in forever. o.O

But I screwed up when we were at Phil's open house. I just had to open my big mouth and mention I thought the blonde was kinda hot. Which led to Keather falling into him while Phil opened cards. Why, WHY does she do this to us....BUT, talking with Chantel in her car when she dropped me off made me feel better. She'd even made a wrong turn accidentally, ended up taking a longer route to take me home.

I think that's what I'll miss when we graduate, though....I love being able to talk to Chantel. She's my rock, the support I need when no one else is around. So to part ways when we go to separate colleges will be tough...but we'll always have each other. And just because we won't be at the same school doesn't mean we can't talk anymore. I never really expected us to go to the same college after Lincoln anyway. I feel lucky enough to go to Lincoln with her in the first place!

She mentions I'm her first friend, or first best friend or first friend at Lincoln, yada yada, which really means a lot to me. I remember my first friend. Her name was Reanna, this girl that I met through preschool at church. My mom remembers I had this friend from the year before, but I don't remember her at all. Just Reanna. But Reanna moved. This tends to be a common occurrence for me--those friends that I become closest to, end up moving. First was Reanna....then there was this girl Rachel from 5th grade, she was freaky but still was a friend of mine. Then somewhere along the way Nicole moved from the neighborhood, and she was my best friend for a long while. Not going to lie, I'm really glad that I still talk to her, or at least try to stay in touch. Another neighbor that moved was Macy and Kelsey, who also really meant a lot to me...I mean, I broke my arm while playing with them one night, you don't forget those awesome memories!!

Probably should worry about calling that memory awesome, but it wasn't so traumatic having them there to help me out. :)

Then in 6th grade there was Corri and Tejiah. Double whammy, ouch. Tejiah was one of my best friends of all time, and Corri was also a good friend for the short time that I knew her. I really wish I could find Tejiah and just say hi one more time. :/. But ah well. And sophomore year Lydia moved to North Carolina....now Jackass will be moving to Utah. I'm not feeling so bad about him leaving, actually sort of looking forward to it. But still, he left a pretty big impact on my life. Even though most of it was pretty shitty....

God, I hate talking about him even. I nearly choked up talking about him with Chantel too today, which bothers me even more....he's Jackass, he hasn't done much of anything to deserve any sort of pity, let alone any attention.

Soooo anyways.....after all these friends have moved away, Chantel has still been here for me. And as she went to SF Lutheran, we're lucky enough to have met through church.....you know, this is the first time I've really seen just how important church is....even though I went through all those years without Chantel nearby, and then being able to be there for her when she went from private to public school, we always had church. So in a way, I owe the church for keeping Chantel and I close...thank you Lord! :D

And now tomorrow is graduation. Ahhh! Scary...I'm afraid I'll get to the arena and have no idea where to go...I think I could follow people around, but still....it's just going to be an experience. :/

Temptations, Temptations...

I'm not going to lie. If I had a fast enough computer and all the time in the world, I would probably be playing The Sims 2 right about now. But alas, I don't exactly have the time to play it, nor do I have a computer that will play it flawlessly....which is why I'm crying a little inside with the upcoming release of The Sims 3. Whyyyyyyy must they taunt me like this!! The look isn't all terribly different from Sims 2, but it's the new features that I want to at least try...I don't care if I'm just a tester or playing a friend's copy of it somewhere other than at home, I just wanna try it out!!! *sigh*.... June 2nd, June 2nd....



See, it taunts me...Oh well.... :/

IT'S OVER!

Holy shit. It's now official. Today was the last day of high school, EVER! It was so monumental, Principal Fox released us seniors from school about 5 minutes early....and as I nearly skipped out of precalc for the last time (gah, to think Mr. Conrad is switching from Lincoln to Washington...assistant principal position, pfft), I actually was feeling GIDDY. I was always really anxious for high school to end, and not in a good way....I feel safe at high school. I know the content that is being learned, I know all of the kids, and I know where the hell I am. But what's going to happen when we go to college? I'm going to end up in Vermillion, an hour away from home, all alone....well, at least I can hold onto the hope that I'll get to room with Keather, yessss :D

But it's scary as hell thinking that I'll never walk into Lincoln again as a "student". I'm now an alumni member, a GRADUATE from Lincoln High School. It probably won't even feel official till we get our diplomas on Sunday, but still....I know I passed all my classes, so I know it's official already, it's just hard to say it's over till it's officially OVER.

Which has happened.

....

Gah....well, I at least spent the day hanging with Megan, because she's always been an amazing friend to me....and soon I'll also spend the rest of the day with Chantel and Keather, my other amazing friends! The most amazing friends in the world, I say....the two of you mean the world to me and more, and I'll never forget you.....especially Chantel, can't forget those confirmation moments!! :D

Hungry, Impatient and Venting

I'm feeling pretty damn all right today. Surprising, right? I go through so many mood swings that I leave people reeling usually. One day I'm glued to the hip with one friend, then I'd rather not talk to that person for a week or two...I dunno, it's like I'm bipolar, when I'm really not....grrrr.

Wow, depressing beginning there when I'm feeling good for once....why do I feel like that? Probably because I've been reading bits and pieces of Lover Avenged today. Sexy books make me feel happy... :)

Drawing was a rush, but I at least got my semester test done. Now I can't wait to pick it up after school and show it off! It's so kickass...ohhh yes....and psych was pretty awesome too, we had a super easy test that I missed just one question on, then watched The Office afterwards. Hell yeah! :D

Now I'm waiting to go out to eat, don't know where but it'll be sweet...then tomorrow will be hopefully hanging with Megan, or maybe Chantel....will have to see what tomorrow brings...

Ending note:
You should've known that word, 'bout what you did with her would get back to me. --Taylor Swift, Should've Said No

Yeah I know, dumbass. 'Bout all it establishes is that your girlfriend's got a big mouth and she can't keep her skirt on. Then again, it's not like you've got anything better to do.....oh wait, you just don't have anyONE better to do.

The only thing keeping me sane anymore is the fact that I know it won't last. You're moving, she's going to college, and you can't handle a long-distance relationship. And don't try arguing with me about it, because you know it's true. You don't have the maturity for it, and you'll only have her in title--to you, dating means intimacy, as in seeing them allll the time. Nothing wrong with that, but with that sort of distance, even mental intimacy won't save you.

Thank the Lord you don't know about this site and probably never will. But knowing you, you just might find it. Then who's the creepy-ass one, huh?

Ah well. She's got you now, so you're not my problem anymore; she can deal with your shit from now on. But oh wait, she hasn't dealt with your crap, hasn't she? She in fact snubbed your attempt at a creative little top ten list of why she should date you. The same top ten list I saw on the back of Waterman's shirt before. Wow, really speaks a lot about you, considering you hate the kid. You earned yourself a lot more hate than Waterman has, so stfu. Asshole.

Wow, did I really need to vent.... :/

Ahhhh.....I want out of here......last period of Statesman, YES!

I ran out of things to do. Probably gonna go in there and sign my name soon on the cabinet, yay!.....please, just end this period so I can go to Drawing and finish my chalk and charcoal drawing....blah.

Last Day of Adroom. *Sigh*.

Well, Donald Trump always manages to keep people on the edge of their seats. Not shocked, 'cause this was almost expected. But seriously, the idiot does a pretty damn job at picking his winners on Celebrity Apprentice. Yeah, I was pissed when he voted Pierce over Trace Adkins. PIERCE MORGAN, come on!! And this season wasn't much different: Joan Rivers, seriously? Even Pierce hated the woman, and you still picked her!!! And on top of it, Rivers raised a measly $150,000. You can barely buy a house with that sort of money. It's like a night's rent in one of Trump's suites....ok, maybe a month, tops. But how much did Duke raise in the competition? $460,000. Over DOUBLE what Rivers raised. And why wasn't she chose? Because apparently her party wasn't as impressive as Rivers'. SERIOUSLY?! How the hell did Trump earn all of his money, by blowing thousands on a party that costs more money than it reaps? Or by, oh I don't know, actually making money. Yeah, real smart Trump.

Ya wanna read it, it's here: http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/tv/2009/05/11/2009-05-11_joan_rivers_wins_celebrity_apprentice.html

Alsoooo, right now is American Idol time. :D I can't help it, the artists they have on this season are AMAZING! As for Adam Lambert.....oh my.....oh hell yes.....I just wish they hadn't voted off Allison last week. She was so freaking awesome. Sure hope she pulls off a Chris Daughtry and comes out with an album of her own :).

Sexy, so sexy...

Today was the last day of adoom. And I mean no more adroom parties, no more wasting away life for a half hour with the greatest people alive...gah...tomorrow is technically the last normal day of school, but even that adroom was stripped from us as we have to practice for graduation--without our adroom teacher!! Grrrr, why....why do I have to graduate without our amazing adroom teacher there...*sigh*.

I'll be so happy to be over with journalism. If I have to write another boring news story again, it'll be too soon...

Ah, interesting moment this morning: a friend was cleaning out his locker, came across a textbook from Washington, of all places. Ironically, I recognized the name inside. Smalllllll world, too damn small of a world. But I hope we can get it back to him soon.

And I really wanna kill my ex sometimes. Just wanna put that out there... :P

Oh, && I get to go watch Richard in Fuddy Meers on the 21st. Yay! :D

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit Adam Lambert is pure sex with that voice...I think it's that weakness I have for men with black hair....oh wait, I have a weakness for men in general! lol.

This blog definitely needs its own little graphic on top...maybe on bottom too, we'll see...at least I have some banner making to look forward to. :P

That First Awkward Post...

I did it!.....Yeeeah....I don't know what provoked me to do this, I just had this urge to find a way to channel my random inner thoughts. It's sort of a way for me to begin anew, and with all that's going on lately, I really need a new leaf...

Let's start with school. There's only four days of my senior left this year. FOUR DAYS! Seriously?! I feel like I should still be at LHS for another two years or so! Gah. As for today, I died during the AP Biology test. There are no words to describe it, really, with the exception of this: o.0 . Honestly, those free-response questions raped me...But hey, now that AP Bio is finished, I'm thinking of spending that class period in Drawing I. My semester test project in that class could use some quality time. But daaaaaang, it's Tao....mmmm that fantastic Tao....

As for yesterday? It was pretty damn good. Finally made it to church, mostly for our senior recognition. I was really kind of looking forward to those blankets for a while :)...meanwhile, I met some of the other seniors whooooo wasn't in confirmation with us. Yeah, nw members and all :P....one of them was a wrestler from Canton. Ahhhh it was one of those "Why not just eff me now" moments mixed with "Seriously, why not, he's pretty cute" thoughts. Eff me? That deserves a different blog story....but I got to talk to him, so that was a nice highlight of my day.

Plus it was Mother's Day. :)

Annnd now off to procrastinate on Precalc and History homework. Procrastination is my middle name, after all!