Ahh, a new day. I think today shall be a good day to report good news. :)
S0, my major (for now) is Contemporary Media & Journalism. My professor for Intro to Mass Communications, Chuck Baldwin, also happens to be our advisor for our paper the Volante. Well, Thursday and Friday they had a little journalism workshop to get us more comfortable with writing and interviewing, and basically joining the newspaper as a whole. Patrick Lalley from the Argus even came in to talk with us, which was really cool too. I was one of the few kids who would get engaged with the conversations, so I don't know if that's a good thing or not...? Bah, who cares!
Anyway, one of the things that came up was that I was interested in the copy editing portion of newspapers. Friday afternoon, I was walking to class, and Mr. Baldwin came by. He told me that the copy editor of the Argus was coming in on Monday to do some interviews and stuff, and said that depending on how her schedule looked, he may be able to get me in and meet her.
OH. MY. GOD!
Really, how often does a chance like that come up? Basically never. Hell, I'll be thrilled if I get even 5 minutes of her time, so this is AMAZING!
And if I don't get to, I won't feel bad in the least. Ha, it's not like I have anything better to do between classes anyway, so this is perfect! :D
So how do you measure what makes a good college? Good professors. :3
Oh, and good showers. Oh God, there's never a shortage of hot water, I swear...and there's shower STALLS, with locks. So much better than SDSU!
Speaking of SDSU, guess which college is the first to report a case of H1N1. Yeep, SDSU. And not just one case, there's 4!.....Granted, Heather put in that they're betting the Honors floors will be the first to get H1N1 here, but that made me laugh so hard when I read that. Hells yeah! :P
Ahh....the Steelers aren't looking so bad to me anymore, which makes Pricey quite happy. But what can I say, it's that school spirit pride in me. One of their players is a USD alumni, woot!
Friday, I went to HyVee to eat with Lathasha and Val. Oh gosh, that was so fun! They thought I was silly for not making them rush sooner (parents had come to pick me up with the dog), but I was having fun and my parents didn't mind the wait. Plus it gave them a chance to eat also, which made my dad happy. Gah, dumb coupons. :/
Also, whoever organizes the mail down in the mailroom is odd. Last week, they stuck someone's mail in our box, #222. No, the number on the mail was #322. Then this week, someone's mail from room #422 was in our box. We always seem to get mail, but it's never actually ours...
Otherwise...I think that's all for now. :3
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
Please, Let This Be The Last Time....
Really, I'm sick and tired of chasing my tail.
All right, Jackass. How many times have we had to have this goddamn conversation...Every comment I make to you is not a personal attack. All I said was that 5 months is damn short in the long scheme of things. That was fucking UNCALLED FOR when you insinuated that our relationship was shorter than how long you've been dating my cousin.
You actually think that I don't know how hard it is to maintain a long-distance relationship? Fuck that, it's hard to keep ANY relationship going over a long distance, whether it be friends, family or significant others. It does not matter what type it is, it is hard. And just because you have moved around a ton growing up doesn't mean it's more difficult for you than it is for anyone else. Has it ever occurred to you that there are other people on the other side of the spectrum? Has it ever occurred to you that it's just as hard for those you're leaving behind? I've been left behind by MANY friends, and I can promise you it's no different. Trying to maintain that long-distance friendship is no fucking different than trying to keep up a serious relationship with a girlfriend or boyfriend. And I've been able to maintain long-distance friendships, friendships with people I haven't even officially met yet. Want to tell me that it's not the same? Fuck you, asshole, someday you need to try it the other way around for once, then we'll see what you think.
You actually had the gall to tell me to get over the fact that you're dating my cousin? You say you had NO clue, not a fucking clue, but you did. The first time you ever met her, I told you I was related to her. You knew that in the back of your mind as you asked her out. Can I believe you didn't ask her out as a personal vendetta against me? Sure, even though it's so much easier to think you did. But to tell me to get over the fact that I'm related to her is just stupid. How about you stop referring to her as your girlfriend, does that make any more sense than what you're asking for? No, it doesn't.
You constantly compare our relationship to the present, and you might as well slap me across the face. Thanks for admitting now that you didn't have the balls to tell me the truth as to why you wouldn't break up with me in the past, that's great. No really, it is a small comfort...because at least then, you're admitting that yes, you couldn't fess up to how you really felt. Was it completely, totally wrong for you to string me along for those last two months, giving me the impression that you still loved me when you didn't? Yes, and frankly you should burn in hell for that. But honestly.....if I'm to be your friend, as you so called me, why can't you be honest with me? And if you can't be honest with me, are you honest with anyone else you call a friend? I know you aren't with Aaron Mead, so who else have you fucked with to get your way? Because I can't be the only one who refuses to accept the shit you try to pull on me.
God, I really shouldn't try to inform the incompetent....It's like, I can explain myself over and over and over again, but it never gets anywhere. I can't begin to count how often I told him I don't appreciate how he's treated me these past months, and even though he apologizes, albeit also metaphorically stomping away from the argument like a cranky toddler saying he'll never speak to me again, he still hasn't learned how easy it is for him to go back to treating me like shit. And I won't tolerate it.
Like how I won't tolerate him treating me like shit, yet continues to refer to me as a friend. Because if that's how he treats his friends.... :/
However, why not record this for further investigation...Background info, referring as to whether 5 months is a long relationship or not.
Jackass: You can't call it short when we ourselves didn't last that long :p
Me: Duh I know, but I'm not retarded, I wasn't going to call you out on it over a goddamn status comment.
And yes, I can call it short. One of my closest friends who graduated with me in May has been dating the same guy for over 4 and a half years. That is long, that takes commitment. My uncle has been dating the same woman for over 5 years now, that is long. My cousin was engaged to the same woman for 10 years before they finally got married in 2006, that was VERY long.
Just because I'm not dating, doesn't mean I haven't learned from others. :/
Jackass: short for one person is different for another. and based on the other two relationships i've had, which were both short for a reason, this is pretty long. especially at 1000 miles away. so i really think you have no room to talk.
Me: And if that's what you're basing it on, it's pretty shaky. 5 months--2 months longer than I, and 1 of those months as you said, 1000 miles away. Yeah, really impressive.
You say I have no room to talk, but that's your opinion. If you can't respect what I have to say, that's your problem. But at least I can respect the fact that you've been trying to make a long-distance relationship work with my cousin of all people, when you told me that you couldn't handle a long-distance relationship in the past. I'm sorry for even trying to tease you about it, but frankly, comparing our relationship to what you have now is a low blow.
Jackass: which is still that much longer than you. And you have no idea how hard a long distance is.
what's keni being your cousin got to do with it? It's not like i went out to find a person to date just to piss you off. And i'm definitely not dating a person in your family to piss you off either. I seriously had no idea she was even REMOTELY related to you. I wasn't even looking for someone to date either. At all. So get over the fact that Keni's your second cousin or whatever.
And don't you realize that I didn't wanna do a long distance with you for a reason, Darcy? I didn't have the guts to tell you at the time, but I do now. I didn't wanna do it because I wanted to break up with you there. Wrestling did have something to do with it, but the main reason was because I rushed into the relationship, and you weren't the same person I thought you were. And the person you actually are I can't see myself dating. It's just me. Friends, yes, dating, not so much.
Me: Wy, you're telling me to get over the wrong thing. Can I get over thinking that you had a vendetta against me? Yes I can, and I have. But get over the fact that she's my cousin? Forget it. And if it's not an issue with you, then you shouldn't be telling me to deny someone as family--it's like me telling you to stop referring to her as your girlfriend. Not gonna happen.
And thanks for telling me that you didn't have a pair while dating me. If we want an interesting conversation, why not tell me who you thought I was. And no, I'm not talking about how you thought I was Murphy. And no again, I won't get upset at whatever your answer is, really.
But as a friend, I did deserve the truth...and I still do. Whatever the reason, it's something I obviously didn't get from you. Is it ever too late to tell the truth, no. But you told me you didn't regret us, wouldn't have changed it for anything, and I don't know whether I should believe it or not...especially when you continuously compare our past to the present. Like I was so insignificant, a bad mistake. So if I really am a friend, start treating me like one, please.
Jackass: #1. No vendetta against you. #2. She's so distantly related to you i don't see why it matters that I'm even dating her. It's like you hated it from the start.
I don't regret that i ever dated you. I learned from it. I became who I am now because of it. It's just a section of my life I am not apt to have the best feelings for. I just changed from then, and there were things then I didn't like, and those things shaped me to who I am now.
I thought you were the person who I wanted you to be. Not who you actually were. Whom I figured out later, and I didn't agree with who you were, which is why I broke up with you.
Me: #1. She's close enough I can trace the family tree. She's in fact the same distance as Ryan Hall is to me, and he calls me cous. Are you going to tell me that Ryan's an idiot for calling me his cous? No, it's just "different" because Keni doesn't know, or just won't say it.
Who you are now? Who you are now has been an asshole to me, especially when you first started dating Keni. And now, you used the short timespan as a weapon to publicly humiliate me--even if 80% didn't know what you were talking about. You say I'm a friend, yet you rarely if ever talk to me. More than likely, you've even gotten me hidden on your news feed so that you don't have to see anything I say or do.
Vagueness is being vague. I get it, you can't make someone into who you want them to be, and I appreciate it that you wouldn't go so far as to try and change who I was. That's still not telling me who I am...or who I was, as you put it.
Jackass: Oh Keni knows you and her are related. Trust me. I've told her. She accepted that fact long, long ago. I just don't see why it should matter that she's related to you and I'm dating her. Those two things seems totally irrelevant to each other. That's the topic i was trying to explain to you.
Darcy, I'm someone you'll never understand. So don't even try.
I thought we had common interests. I thought that's who you were. I thought you would be a person I would enjoy hanging out with. You were, until I figured out that we had basically nothing in common.
Me: Wy, I know you aren't close with most of your extended family, but I am. And I'd really appreciate it if you'd accept the fact that I value family. Especially because my family, and those who may be great-aunts, cousins, etc, are much closer than you'll ever understand.
And speaking of understanding, why do you even try to pretend that you understand me? You're also the one insinuating that I care who you're dating, when I've never said that. Sure, it's funny to watch others' reactions when I say my ex is dating my cousin, but you're exactly that--my ex. And when I'm finally treated like a friend rather than an insignificant past, then I can say that my friends are dating.
But thanks for going into more detail there...I guess. You're still using the word were in there, and you sort of imply that you didn't enjoy hanging out with me just because we didn't have much in common, but whatevs...
Jackass: Please don't call me Wy. Makes me feel uncomfortable.
And that still doesn't answer the question of why you don't like Keni and I dating. And I am close with the two cousins I actually have contact with, Sara and Alec.
I don't even care if I understand you or not, Darcy.
And i didn't "sort of" imply. I DID imply that. Once I found out we didn't have much in common, fun started to vanish. Because I want to hang out with people who want to do the same stuff I do. I want to be able to relate to those people. Share the same feelings and attitudes with them. I couldn't do that with you.
Me: Well it's pretty damn hard to answer why I "don't like it" when I don't actually give a damn. Never have I said "I don't like you two dating", it's just what you automatically assume. Has it ever occurred to you that I might have disliked the circumstances more than who she is? No, it clearly hasn't, which is why you have no room to talk when it comes to what I think.
If you don't care, then stop trying.
And I'm sorry you weren't able to accept me for who I was, let alone compromise.
Well, that was a waste of time. But, sometimes seeing what really goes on makes more sense than my endless rambling. :/
I feel really tired now, and kind of sick. God, I hate this...and I had such good news to report. That will have to wait till tomorrow, I guess.
All right, Jackass. How many times have we had to have this goddamn conversation...Every comment I make to you is not a personal attack. All I said was that 5 months is damn short in the long scheme of things. That was fucking UNCALLED FOR when you insinuated that our relationship was shorter than how long you've been dating my cousin.
You actually think that I don't know how hard it is to maintain a long-distance relationship? Fuck that, it's hard to keep ANY relationship going over a long distance, whether it be friends, family or significant others. It does not matter what type it is, it is hard. And just because you have moved around a ton growing up doesn't mean it's more difficult for you than it is for anyone else. Has it ever occurred to you that there are other people on the other side of the spectrum? Has it ever occurred to you that it's just as hard for those you're leaving behind? I've been left behind by MANY friends, and I can promise you it's no different. Trying to maintain that long-distance friendship is no fucking different than trying to keep up a serious relationship with a girlfriend or boyfriend. And I've been able to maintain long-distance friendships, friendships with people I haven't even officially met yet. Want to tell me that it's not the same? Fuck you, asshole, someday you need to try it the other way around for once, then we'll see what you think.
You actually had the gall to tell me to get over the fact that you're dating my cousin? You say you had NO clue, not a fucking clue, but you did. The first time you ever met her, I told you I was related to her. You knew that in the back of your mind as you asked her out. Can I believe you didn't ask her out as a personal vendetta against me? Sure, even though it's so much easier to think you did. But to tell me to get over the fact that I'm related to her is just stupid. How about you stop referring to her as your girlfriend, does that make any more sense than what you're asking for? No, it doesn't.
You constantly compare our relationship to the present, and you might as well slap me across the face. Thanks for admitting now that you didn't have the balls to tell me the truth as to why you wouldn't break up with me in the past, that's great. No really, it is a small comfort...because at least then, you're admitting that yes, you couldn't fess up to how you really felt. Was it completely, totally wrong for you to string me along for those last two months, giving me the impression that you still loved me when you didn't? Yes, and frankly you should burn in hell for that. But honestly.....if I'm to be your friend, as you so called me, why can't you be honest with me? And if you can't be honest with me, are you honest with anyone else you call a friend? I know you aren't with Aaron Mead, so who else have you fucked with to get your way? Because I can't be the only one who refuses to accept the shit you try to pull on me.
God, I really shouldn't try to inform the incompetent....It's like, I can explain myself over and over and over again, but it never gets anywhere. I can't begin to count how often I told him I don't appreciate how he's treated me these past months, and even though he apologizes, albeit also metaphorically stomping away from the argument like a cranky toddler saying he'll never speak to me again, he still hasn't learned how easy it is for him to go back to treating me like shit. And I won't tolerate it.
Like how I won't tolerate him treating me like shit, yet continues to refer to me as a friend. Because if that's how he treats his friends.... :/
However, why not record this for further investigation...Background info, referring as to whether 5 months is a long relationship or not.
Jackass: You can't call it short when we ourselves didn't last that long :p
Me: Duh I know, but I'm not retarded, I wasn't going to call you out on it over a goddamn status comment.
And yes, I can call it short. One of my closest friends who graduated with me in May has been dating the same guy for over 4 and a half years. That is long, that takes commitment. My uncle has been dating the same woman for over 5 years now, that is long. My cousin was engaged to the same woman for 10 years before they finally got married in 2006, that was VERY long.
Just because I'm not dating, doesn't mean I haven't learned from others. :/
Jackass: short for one person is different for another. and based on the other two relationships i've had, which were both short for a reason, this is pretty long. especially at 1000 miles away. so i really think you have no room to talk.
Me: And if that's what you're basing it on, it's pretty shaky. 5 months--2 months longer than I, and 1 of those months as you said, 1000 miles away. Yeah, really impressive.
You say I have no room to talk, but that's your opinion. If you can't respect what I have to say, that's your problem. But at least I can respect the fact that you've been trying to make a long-distance relationship work with my cousin of all people, when you told me that you couldn't handle a long-distance relationship in the past. I'm sorry for even trying to tease you about it, but frankly, comparing our relationship to what you have now is a low blow.
Jackass: which is still that much longer than you. And you have no idea how hard a long distance is.
what's keni being your cousin got to do with it? It's not like i went out to find a person to date just to piss you off. And i'm definitely not dating a person in your family to piss you off either. I seriously had no idea she was even REMOTELY related to you. I wasn't even looking for someone to date either. At all. So get over the fact that Keni's your second cousin or whatever.
And don't you realize that I didn't wanna do a long distance with you for a reason, Darcy? I didn't have the guts to tell you at the time, but I do now. I didn't wanna do it because I wanted to break up with you there. Wrestling did have something to do with it, but the main reason was because I rushed into the relationship, and you weren't the same person I thought you were. And the person you actually are I can't see myself dating. It's just me. Friends, yes, dating, not so much.
Me: Wy, you're telling me to get over the wrong thing. Can I get over thinking that you had a vendetta against me? Yes I can, and I have. But get over the fact that she's my cousin? Forget it. And if it's not an issue with you, then you shouldn't be telling me to deny someone as family--it's like me telling you to stop referring to her as your girlfriend. Not gonna happen.
And thanks for telling me that you didn't have a pair while dating me. If we want an interesting conversation, why not tell me who you thought I was. And no, I'm not talking about how you thought I was Murphy. And no again, I won't get upset at whatever your answer is, really.
But as a friend, I did deserve the truth...and I still do. Whatever the reason, it's something I obviously didn't get from you. Is it ever too late to tell the truth, no. But you told me you didn't regret us, wouldn't have changed it for anything, and I don't know whether I should believe it or not...especially when you continuously compare our past to the present. Like I was so insignificant, a bad mistake. So if I really am a friend, start treating me like one, please.
Jackass: #1. No vendetta against you. #2. She's so distantly related to you i don't see why it matters that I'm even dating her. It's like you hated it from the start.
I don't regret that i ever dated you. I learned from it. I became who I am now because of it. It's just a section of my life I am not apt to have the best feelings for. I just changed from then, and there were things then I didn't like, and those things shaped me to who I am now.
I thought you were the person who I wanted you to be. Not who you actually were. Whom I figured out later, and I didn't agree with who you were, which is why I broke up with you.
Me: #1. She's close enough I can trace the family tree. She's in fact the same distance as Ryan Hall is to me, and he calls me cous. Are you going to tell me that Ryan's an idiot for calling me his cous? No, it's just "different" because Keni doesn't know, or just won't say it.
Who you are now? Who you are now has been an asshole to me, especially when you first started dating Keni. And now, you used the short timespan as a weapon to publicly humiliate me--even if 80% didn't know what you were talking about. You say I'm a friend, yet you rarely if ever talk to me. More than likely, you've even gotten me hidden on your news feed so that you don't have to see anything I say or do.
Vagueness is being vague. I get it, you can't make someone into who you want them to be, and I appreciate it that you wouldn't go so far as to try and change who I was. That's still not telling me who I am...or who I was, as you put it.
Jackass: Oh Keni knows you and her are related. Trust me. I've told her. She accepted that fact long, long ago. I just don't see why it should matter that she's related to you and I'm dating her. Those two things seems totally irrelevant to each other. That's the topic i was trying to explain to you.
Darcy, I'm someone you'll never understand. So don't even try.
I thought we had common interests. I thought that's who you were. I thought you would be a person I would enjoy hanging out with. You were, until I figured out that we had basically nothing in common.
Me: Wy, I know you aren't close with most of your extended family, but I am. And I'd really appreciate it if you'd accept the fact that I value family. Especially because my family, and those who may be great-aunts, cousins, etc, are much closer than you'll ever understand.
And speaking of understanding, why do you even try to pretend that you understand me? You're also the one insinuating that I care who you're dating, when I've never said that. Sure, it's funny to watch others' reactions when I say my ex is dating my cousin, but you're exactly that--my ex. And when I'm finally treated like a friend rather than an insignificant past, then I can say that my friends are dating.
But thanks for going into more detail there...I guess. You're still using the word were in there, and you sort of imply that you didn't enjoy hanging out with me just because we didn't have much in common, but whatevs...
Jackass: Please don't call me Wy. Makes me feel uncomfortable.
And that still doesn't answer the question of why you don't like Keni and I dating. And I am close with the two cousins I actually have contact with, Sara and Alec.
I don't even care if I understand you or not, Darcy.
And i didn't "sort of" imply. I DID imply that. Once I found out we didn't have much in common, fun started to vanish. Because I want to hang out with people who want to do the same stuff I do. I want to be able to relate to those people. Share the same feelings and attitudes with them. I couldn't do that with you.
Me: Well it's pretty damn hard to answer why I "don't like it" when I don't actually give a damn. Never have I said "I don't like you two dating", it's just what you automatically assume. Has it ever occurred to you that I might have disliked the circumstances more than who she is? No, it clearly hasn't, which is why you have no room to talk when it comes to what I think.
If you don't care, then stop trying.
And I'm sorry you weren't able to accept me for who I was, let alone compromise.
Well, that was a waste of time. But, sometimes seeing what really goes on makes more sense than my endless rambling. :/
I feel really tired now, and kind of sick. God, I hate this...and I had such good news to report. That will have to wait till tomorrow, I guess.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
I Really Shouldn't Be Doing This...
I feel so anti-social for now....been studying (or at least attempting to), and it feels like there's so much more I could be doing...
Keather's out at some meeting thing, I have no clue. I wouldn't be surprised though if she's off frolicking with Trey, he mentioned a slip-n-slide party at his fraternity. She's still bragging about how many friends she's made with guys. Ha. Sooner or later, it's going to dawn on her that that's not how you get a guy. You get a guy by being yourself--not by befriending as many of them as possible. The more guy friends you end up with, the more you become "that girl"...hell, the more you whore around with other guys, the more you become "that girl", but it's more like "THAT girl"....but there comes a time where they view you just as a friend, nothing more. Most men aren't stupid, they know when they've got a good friendship going. Different story with boys, but that's a different rant, lol.
Bah.
There's a campfire too down at the park with the Honors Association, I'm really tempted to see if anyone else wants to go to that. Maybe if I went to that I'd feel more productive...and it's not like I haven't been, I did some studying and hung out with Val and Lathasha a bit today too. Plus the Volante meeting today. I get paid to write columns, woot!
Which reminds me, mah checkies came in. They's got NASCAR on them. :3
And I think I might've gotten the Coyote Card thing figured out....so, I have 80 meals to use at the Commons, PLUS about $600 in flex money that I can use at the dining places in the Muc? At least that's the impression that I'm on now....but otherwise, my Coyote ID is devoid of cash. :O
Also, I'm thinking of downloading GIMP for the laptop. I hate GIMP, but I'm PSP/Photoshop-less down here. It's all on my old laptop. :/
Ahh well. I should really stop procrastinating here and work on studying. Blah.
Keather's out at some meeting thing, I have no clue. I wouldn't be surprised though if she's off frolicking with Trey, he mentioned a slip-n-slide party at his fraternity. She's still bragging about how many friends she's made with guys. Ha. Sooner or later, it's going to dawn on her that that's not how you get a guy. You get a guy by being yourself--not by befriending as many of them as possible. The more guy friends you end up with, the more you become "that girl"...hell, the more you whore around with other guys, the more you become "that girl", but it's more like "THAT girl"....but there comes a time where they view you just as a friend, nothing more. Most men aren't stupid, they know when they've got a good friendship going. Different story with boys, but that's a different rant, lol.
Bah.
There's a campfire too down at the park with the Honors Association, I'm really tempted to see if anyone else wants to go to that. Maybe if I went to that I'd feel more productive...and it's not like I haven't been, I did some studying and hung out with Val and Lathasha a bit today too. Plus the Volante meeting today. I get paid to write columns, woot!
Which reminds me, mah checkies came in. They's got NASCAR on them. :3
And I think I might've gotten the Coyote Card thing figured out....so, I have 80 meals to use at the Commons, PLUS about $600 in flex money that I can use at the dining places in the Muc? At least that's the impression that I'm on now....but otherwise, my Coyote ID is devoid of cash. :O
Also, I'm thinking of downloading GIMP for the laptop. I hate GIMP, but I'm PSP/Photoshop-less down here. It's all on my old laptop. :/
Ahh well. I should really stop procrastinating here and work on studying. Blah.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Playing Catch-Up
Well, I'm quite behind on this whole documenting-good-stuffs-and/or-rants deal...and I could sure use a break from this studying business. So here it comes.
I'm really loving college! There aren't many kids on my floor who I won't say hi to, and everyone's really awesome--even the guys! Plus there are a whole ton of awesome kids I've met elsewhere, like Lathasha (love her name) and Val, and Kacee, and so many others I can't even start to name them!
And on an interesting note, I got my first official guy's number today? Ha, his name's Eric, he's pretty sweet. Now if only he didn't look so much like Jackass, I'd be happier...a LOT happier....but he's still a really cool guy, with a really cool roommate, and let me watch The Office with him in their dorm. :) But what would make me really happy, is if he would ask out Kacee, because I met him through her. And 1) I'd sort of feel like I stole him from her, 2) I think she'd be a lot better off with him than I (whole enjoying my singleness now and such), and 3) Well...he reminds me of Jackass. A nicer, not-asshole version of Jackass, but the way he looks is just...I'd be afraid I'm dating him for all the wrong reasons, and/or it'd get in the way of me wanting to date him for who HE is...I know I can differentiate between the two, but it bothers me that he reminds me of Jackass.
And apparently Jackass still sees me as a friend. A friend he never speaks to, however. Go figure, but that's how it's always seemed to work out when it comes to Wyatt. He insists on dating my cousin, even though he can't go out on dates with her. He calls me a friend, even though he won't talk to me. He says so much, even though he hasn't meant a whole lot of it.
Also, Sunday was the deadline for my first column on the Volante. How awesome is that! Plus I have my cousin Heather as the opinion editor, aka my boss, and I'm hoping with that I'll be more driven to impress her and actually do well (and on time, she really likes on time!). But Val is also on the staff with me, so I'm thinking this will be a good year! Val's roommate is also in my Intro to Mass Comm class, so that's going to be cool too.
Speaking of roommates....Keather's an odd little thing, just have to put that out there. I mean, she's a great roommate (for the most part)....I don't mind messes that often, with the slight issue that she left crumbs all over the desk....food is an odd issue for me. I hate it lying around, so even though the crumbs are on her side of the desk, it's still a bit bothersome because I actually USE the desk. Not to mention that I found an apple core in my wastebasket. Stupid thing to worry about after the first week, but really, had my wastebasket been empty, I'd be pissed. That stuff is not fun to have lying around. PERISHABLES, people!
Plus she won't touch the half gallon of milk I got last week, but her mom made her bring another half gallon anyway...I really don't think she's had much of any, unless it went on her cereal, in which she leaves the bowl & spoon lying around next to her stuff. I mean, come on...even I can go down to the kitchenette and at least rinse out my dishes. :/
There are little things I noticed that I never had before. I knew about her way of falling around guys, which is one interesting fact: I have not seen her fall ONCE since we moved in. Seriously. I also learned that Keather makes up excuses. A LOT. Like why the military is horrible for her because she hates moving and wants to have a family and--that's where I had to pause her and give her the facts. It IS possible to have a family, I've got numerous family members in the military. I get it, you don't want to be in it, but don't make up goddamn excuses that aren't based on fact.
Also, she is convinced that she "connects with guys" better than she does with girls, mostly because she supposedly "thinks like a guy". Yes, because apparently guys get up over an hour before classes start to get their makeup on, straighten their hair, stand in front of the closet for 15 minutes to decide what they're going to wear, then finally settle on a tank top 95% of the time. Just because you like to play sports (which, btw, belegarthing is NOT a sport), does not mean you think like a guy. Just because you put your clothes in drawers does not mean you think like a guy. I also put my clothes into drawers, I actually pass on makeup, I like to wear sweatshirts and wear men's lounge pants/shorts when I go to sleep, and I love to watch sports. I may not play them, but I think men appreciate being able to TALK about all those different kinds of sports with someone else who likes them, because it's very possible they never played it.
Why don't we look at it at a psychological standpoint. As I documented in that earlier post, she had said, "I'm really competitive when it comes to men." Oh yes, this is quite telling. Especially when you cling to the first one that walks by without attachments. It's not that you're just competitive when playing video games or sports with boys....you also find it a competition to flirt with them, make them fall for you before they lay eyes on another girl. Isn't it amazing how careful you have to be when it comes to what you say?
It's like how you can't remember meeting Trey for the first time because I was the one to go up to him and say hi to him...yet you can remember that he was the one to say "I can pwn noobs at Halo", which happened the exact same night, just an hour before. That's not "associating" him with another encounter, that's just you making up another fucking mistake because you can't stand to be wrong.
But whatevs. I'm making friends, friends that aren't friends with Keather, and that's what I'm striving to do. Make my own fanbase I guess I can call it, a separate group of people who I can use as an outlet to vent frustrations such as this. Because frankly, even though I have the opinion section of the paper, it's too public for things like that...nor relevant. And on top of that, I'm here to make those friends who will always be there to support me. Guys who are seen as potential dating material are not. That's called just using them for your personal gain.
However, I do have Aarin's forum that I can vent in if need be. That has been a blast to play in also.
And classes have been going well also, nothing to complain there. Sure, there aren't many assignments where you have to get this done by a certain date, but it's become now where you're actually responsible for reading the material and taking notes...or in the case of some classes, printing/saving the notes on the computer. Sweet!
That's about all I can think of for now, though...I should probably go and take a shower myself, or at least study a bit more. So yeah. :P
I'm really loving college! There aren't many kids on my floor who I won't say hi to, and everyone's really awesome--even the guys! Plus there are a whole ton of awesome kids I've met elsewhere, like Lathasha (love her name) and Val, and Kacee, and so many others I can't even start to name them!
And on an interesting note, I got my first official guy's number today? Ha, his name's Eric, he's pretty sweet. Now if only he didn't look so much like Jackass, I'd be happier...a LOT happier....but he's still a really cool guy, with a really cool roommate, and let me watch The Office with him in their dorm. :) But what would make me really happy, is if he would ask out Kacee, because I met him through her. And 1) I'd sort of feel like I stole him from her, 2) I think she'd be a lot better off with him than I (whole enjoying my singleness now and such), and 3) Well...he reminds me of Jackass. A nicer, not-asshole version of Jackass, but the way he looks is just...I'd be afraid I'm dating him for all the wrong reasons, and/or it'd get in the way of me wanting to date him for who HE is...I know I can differentiate between the two, but it bothers me that he reminds me of Jackass.
And apparently Jackass still sees me as a friend. A friend he never speaks to, however. Go figure, but that's how it's always seemed to work out when it comes to Wyatt. He insists on dating my cousin, even though he can't go out on dates with her. He calls me a friend, even though he won't talk to me. He says so much, even though he hasn't meant a whole lot of it.
Also, Sunday was the deadline for my first column on the Volante. How awesome is that! Plus I have my cousin Heather as the opinion editor, aka my boss, and I'm hoping with that I'll be more driven to impress her and actually do well (and on time, she really likes on time!). But Val is also on the staff with me, so I'm thinking this will be a good year! Val's roommate is also in my Intro to Mass Comm class, so that's going to be cool too.
Speaking of roommates....Keather's an odd little thing, just have to put that out there. I mean, she's a great roommate (for the most part)....I don't mind messes that often, with the slight issue that she left crumbs all over the desk....food is an odd issue for me. I hate it lying around, so even though the crumbs are on her side of the desk, it's still a bit bothersome because I actually USE the desk. Not to mention that I found an apple core in my wastebasket. Stupid thing to worry about after the first week, but really, had my wastebasket been empty, I'd be pissed. That stuff is not fun to have lying around. PERISHABLES, people!
Plus she won't touch the half gallon of milk I got last week, but her mom made her bring another half gallon anyway...I really don't think she's had much of any, unless it went on her cereal, in which she leaves the bowl & spoon lying around next to her stuff. I mean, come on...even I can go down to the kitchenette and at least rinse out my dishes. :/
There are little things I noticed that I never had before. I knew about her way of falling around guys, which is one interesting fact: I have not seen her fall ONCE since we moved in. Seriously. I also learned that Keather makes up excuses. A LOT. Like why the military is horrible for her because she hates moving and wants to have a family and--that's where I had to pause her and give her the facts. It IS possible to have a family, I've got numerous family members in the military. I get it, you don't want to be in it, but don't make up goddamn excuses that aren't based on fact.
Also, she is convinced that she "connects with guys" better than she does with girls, mostly because she supposedly "thinks like a guy". Yes, because apparently guys get up over an hour before classes start to get their makeup on, straighten their hair, stand in front of the closet for 15 minutes to decide what they're going to wear, then finally settle on a tank top 95% of the time. Just because you like to play sports (which, btw, belegarthing is NOT a sport), does not mean you think like a guy. Just because you put your clothes in drawers does not mean you think like a guy. I also put my clothes into drawers, I actually pass on makeup, I like to wear sweatshirts and wear men's lounge pants/shorts when I go to sleep, and I love to watch sports. I may not play them, but I think men appreciate being able to TALK about all those different kinds of sports with someone else who likes them, because it's very possible they never played it.
Why don't we look at it at a psychological standpoint. As I documented in that earlier post, she had said, "I'm really competitive when it comes to men." Oh yes, this is quite telling. Especially when you cling to the first one that walks by without attachments. It's not that you're just competitive when playing video games or sports with boys....you also find it a competition to flirt with them, make them fall for you before they lay eyes on another girl. Isn't it amazing how careful you have to be when it comes to what you say?
It's like how you can't remember meeting Trey for the first time because I was the one to go up to him and say hi to him...yet you can remember that he was the one to say "I can pwn noobs at Halo", which happened the exact same night, just an hour before. That's not "associating" him with another encounter, that's just you making up another fucking mistake because you can't stand to be wrong.
But whatevs. I'm making friends, friends that aren't friends with Keather, and that's what I'm striving to do. Make my own fanbase I guess I can call it, a separate group of people who I can use as an outlet to vent frustrations such as this. Because frankly, even though I have the opinion section of the paper, it's too public for things like that...nor relevant. And on top of that, I'm here to make those friends who will always be there to support me. Guys who are seen as potential dating material are not. That's called just using them for your personal gain.
However, I do have Aarin's forum that I can vent in if need be. That has been a blast to play in also.
And classes have been going well also, nothing to complain there. Sure, there aren't many assignments where you have to get this done by a certain date, but it's become now where you're actually responsible for reading the material and taking notes...or in the case of some classes, printing/saving the notes on the computer. Sweet!
That's about all I can think of for now, though...I should probably go and take a shower myself, or at least study a bit more. So yeah. :P
Success!
This shall be a quick blog post, but I guess it's better to say it now rather than wait till the excitement has left me...
I actually set up my brand new printer all by myself! :D HELL YEAH! It took about an hour to figure out, but I got it!
I have to admit, it feels amazing when something works out so well like that...for example, setting up a printer. I've never done it before, so this was quite an experience. Hell, I hadn't even loaded ink into a printer until now. That part took the longest to figure out, but it finally worked once I realized that I was trying to load the black ink into the color ink slot...oops. But no matter, I got it figured out! And all before I had to leave for my Calc quiz at 11.
Another thing that is making me wonder...they said we can't use Firefox down here on campus, yet here I am? Maybe it's just that when setting up with Cisco and all their wireless stuff, it doesn't work. But hell yes, this also has made my day! I was almost tempted to put my contacts on and actually look presentable today because of all this good stuff...but nah, didn't go for it, lol.
Speaking of the Calc quiz, I should probably wrap things up and go to class. I think I'll be back later tonight to finish catching up on college life.
I actually set up my brand new printer all by myself! :D HELL YEAH! It took about an hour to figure out, but I got it!
I have to admit, it feels amazing when something works out so well like that...for example, setting up a printer. I've never done it before, so this was quite an experience. Hell, I hadn't even loaded ink into a printer until now. That part took the longest to figure out, but it finally worked once I realized that I was trying to load the black ink into the color ink slot...oops. But no matter, I got it figured out! And all before I had to leave for my Calc quiz at 11.
Another thing that is making me wonder...they said we can't use Firefox down here on campus, yet here I am? Maybe it's just that when setting up with Cisco and all their wireless stuff, it doesn't work. But hell yes, this also has made my day! I was almost tempted to put my contacts on and actually look presentable today because of all this good stuff...but nah, didn't go for it, lol.
Speaking of the Calc quiz, I should probably wrap things up and go to class. I think I'll be back later tonight to finish catching up on college life.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I Fail At Life!
Gahhhh!
I had an opportunity to help a hot guy, and I mean hot and can play a frigging guitar DAMN well, get his wireless internet working. What I didn't know was that it was a Mac. Ok, so I dive in and get his anti-virus downloaded and installed onto his comp, woot!
Once that hurdle was completed, then it was finding out how to connect to the network. Ok, I click on Network Diagnostics. I've found the network, gotten him logged into it (or at least I think so), then I completely lost it. I was stuck.
I failed at getting his internet connection working. *cry!*
Last I saw him, Nolan was with him getting his internet up, and Dylan (or Dustin, can't remember) was also going into his room saying he couldn't get the Mac in his hands to work either. Probably his, so they're all struggling. And so am I, cuz I'm not smart enough to work a damn Mac. Gahhh!
Ahh well. At least I tried. Just have to remind myself that I should be proud that I could at least get the anti-virus software downloaded for him. :P
I had an opportunity to help a hot guy, and I mean hot and can play a frigging guitar DAMN well, get his wireless internet working. What I didn't know was that it was a Mac. Ok, so I dive in and get his anti-virus downloaded and installed onto his comp, woot!
Once that hurdle was completed, then it was finding out how to connect to the network. Ok, I click on Network Diagnostics. I've found the network, gotten him logged into it (or at least I think so), then I completely lost it. I was stuck.
I failed at getting his internet connection working. *cry!*
Last I saw him, Nolan was with him getting his internet up, and Dylan (or Dustin, can't remember) was also going into his room saying he couldn't get the Mac in his hands to work either. Probably his, so they're all struggling. And so am I, cuz I'm not smart enough to work a damn Mac. Gahhh!
Ahh well. At least I tried. Just have to remind myself that I should be proud that I could at least get the anti-virus software downloaded for him. :P
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