......Actually, not really. I'm just really twitchy and NO ONE HAS BEEN BY THE DESK IN OVER AN HOUR. Let's just say I could really use a bathroom break. :/
On the other hand, good news! SKYE IS ENGAGED!!! I'm so super excited for her, because she was one of my better halves last year. First met in our Intro to Mass Comm class, then were gonna room together spring semester until she found out that she was getting a CA position. Thus, she was my motivation to apply for the job, also. :)
And it's even better because I told her I could see it happening. Back in December when I was venting to her my frustrations with HCB, she was the one that reminded me that nothing's sacred until there's a ring on the finger. And even then, she had doubts that she'd even get that ring from her boyfriend Andrew. I told her she would, I really did!!! Hell, I'm saving that picture of her ring, it's amazing.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
In Other News
1) I ran into HCB today! It wasn't for too long since it was just before classes for us, but it was pretty typical. He got in his usual crack about me being crazy, also one about me being one of his stalkers, then we talked about his vacation with the family. I may be crazy, but he has no problem talking about him and his little bro, and how his brother the pilot still managed to get seasick during their cruise. It's not stalking when he hands you the information, you know!
2) Adorable little story about the ice rink where our guys play hockey. Too awesome!
http://www.ktiv.com/Global/story.asp?S=13777054
2) Adorable little story about the ice rink where our guys play hockey. Too awesome!
http://www.ktiv.com/Global/story.asp?S=13777054
What a Predicament
Hmm. Close the door during a True Blood sex scene, or leave the door open and keep the kids just a little bit quieter and a lot out of mischief....
Meh, left the door open.
And I totes got to use the word hell to get my point across tonight. But seriously, when you open the door and there's chunks of pepper in the hallway and some 5 kids hanging out by the bathrooms, your first instinct is to say "Uhh what the hell is that?" Followed with "Well then will someone be nice enough to pick it up?" Feel free to talk about picking up after 10 year olds, but realize that you allllllll are 10 year old little fuckers.
All right, that's an exaggeration, you're 7 not 10. And maybe if you didn't leave dishes in the kitchen, or leave shit in the hallways, or figure out what the fuck a trash can is, then maybe you'll actually make it past the first year of college.....Damnit.
Meh, left the door open.
And I totes got to use the word hell to get my point across tonight. But seriously, when you open the door and there's chunks of pepper in the hallway and some 5 kids hanging out by the bathrooms, your first instinct is to say "Uhh what the hell is that?" Followed with "Well then will someone be nice enough to pick it up?" Feel free to talk about picking up after 10 year olds, but realize that you allllllll are 10 year old little fuckers.
All right, that's an exaggeration, you're 7 not 10. And maybe if you didn't leave dishes in the kitchen, or leave shit in the hallways, or figure out what the fuck a trash can is, then maybe you'll actually make it past the first year of college.....Damnit.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Meh. Part Deux.
Just keep your head up, stay optimistic, stop with the overanalyzing and melodramatic crap...yeah, telling yourself that over and over again doesn't really work.
It's that roller coaster thing again. Basically, I'm losing hope. Again. And it's a cross between saying fuck it all, and just being pleasantly surprised when something happens. It's not like I really want to give up...but I dunno. Even when I have Sures giving me all the encouragement he could give me, teasing me as often as he can about it and everything, I still can't believe him. Not with something like this. Largely because he's not HCB, and I have issues when it comes down to 'he said she said.' I know Sures has good intentions, but I just can't bring myself to hope that much.
And Sures knows that it's HCB and him alone. Side note, Sures is just about as much a flirt as what HCB is, as shown by when he sat down between Alex and me when we were hanging out in Richie/Olson's basement and proceeded to put his arm behind me. I just leaned wayyy to the left and stared at him with big eyes. But mostly leaned away. Which then made him laugh and made some flippant comment about how he didn't want to make HCB feel jealous....only one of the times of him joking that HCB likes me. But I still don't know what to say about it.
The thing is, my shyness is proving to be a lot more difficult to overcome than I thought it'd be. And because of that, the questions start creeping in about whether or not this will all be for naught. If I really wanted to be optimistic, I could overanalyze the shit out of hey, maybe he hasn't said anything because he's a guy, and guys are just as afraid of rejection as girls. On the other hand, he really doesn't seem like one to have this shyness. He's shown he has no problem with approaching women. Does that mean I wouldn't put it past him? Oh hell no. I think he's entirely capable of having his shy times, because he's let me in on some of his other insecurities. He can be entirely full of himself most times, but he's insecure about his weight like crazy. So therefore, I believe he's capable of feeling shy, too.
But then again, it usually comes down to damn it, make some sort of contact. Regardless of past evidence, I never saw him at all hours of the day when he was living in the dorms; now that he's out, I'll be lucky if I run into him at the MUC. And right now, I feel like I'm putting a lot more effort into contacting him than he is of me. Would I hold it against him, no. And if I really thought about it, he very possibly initiated a few more texts than I did because of the times he asked whether I could edit something for him, check mail, whatever. However, it was only if he wanted/needed something.
Not to mention he gets on edge if you text him about random stuff. He's given me crap for it in the past, so he doesn't get it any longer. :P
It's that roller coaster thing again. Basically, I'm losing hope. Again. And it's a cross between saying fuck it all, and just being pleasantly surprised when something happens. It's not like I really want to give up...but I dunno. Even when I have Sures giving me all the encouragement he could give me, teasing me as often as he can about it and everything, I still can't believe him. Not with something like this. Largely because he's not HCB, and I have issues when it comes down to 'he said she said.' I know Sures has good intentions, but I just can't bring myself to hope that much.
And Sures knows that it's HCB and him alone. Side note, Sures is just about as much a flirt as what HCB is, as shown by when he sat down between Alex and me when we were hanging out in Richie/Olson's basement and proceeded to put his arm behind me. I just leaned wayyy to the left and stared at him with big eyes. But mostly leaned away. Which then made him laugh and made some flippant comment about how he didn't want to make HCB feel jealous....only one of the times of him joking that HCB likes me. But I still don't know what to say about it.
The thing is, my shyness is proving to be a lot more difficult to overcome than I thought it'd be. And because of that, the questions start creeping in about whether or not this will all be for naught. If I really wanted to be optimistic, I could overanalyze the shit out of hey, maybe he hasn't said anything because he's a guy, and guys are just as afraid of rejection as girls. On the other hand, he really doesn't seem like one to have this shyness. He's shown he has no problem with approaching women. Does that mean I wouldn't put it past him? Oh hell no. I think he's entirely capable of having his shy times, because he's let me in on some of his other insecurities. He can be entirely full of himself most times, but he's insecure about his weight like crazy. So therefore, I believe he's capable of feeling shy, too.
But then again, it usually comes down to damn it, make some sort of contact. Regardless of past evidence, I never saw him at all hours of the day when he was living in the dorms; now that he's out, I'll be lucky if I run into him at the MUC. And right now, I feel like I'm putting a lot more effort into contacting him than he is of me. Would I hold it against him, no. And if I really thought about it, he very possibly initiated a few more texts than I did because of the times he asked whether I could edit something for him, check mail, whatever. However, it was only if he wanted/needed something.
Not to mention he gets on edge if you text him about random stuff. He's given me crap for it in the past, so he doesn't get it any longer. :P
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Why This Was An Awesome Day of Awesomeness
And yes, this will probably be another list day.
1) Woke up this morning and went shopping. Shopko wasn't in a backpack-selling season, so that backfired. But we did get little Chloe's blanket shipped on its way to Miami now!
2) Come home, and what arrives? Psych and True Blood, FINALLY! So Mom and I had a Psych Season 4 marathon. This semester's goal, get together with Ashley and demand that we have our Psych marathon. Yessssss....
2.5) Spent part of the afternoon exchanging comments with my cousin Faith. Interesting story there, I haven't seen/talked to her since, oh, 2006. About the same goes for the rest of the family on my mom's side. And who randomly added me on Facebook? Faith. I couldn't resist but leave a nice little message that day saying I've missed her, lulz. This afternoon's conversation included school and super cute hockey boys. It's like long lost twins....bahaha! :D
3) Go out shopping again at the mall. Trade Secret didn't have the dry shampoo I wanted in, but I got three new books at Walden's, woo! One was previously chosen at Shopko but didn't want to go through checkout with just one item. Second was a new book by Stephanie Rowe, who I discovered at Last Stop CD Shop and kinda love her sense of humor...albeit being rather strange, but it's a fiction book, come on! Third was one that was totally random. Was looking at titles blindly, saw this one with an angel-looking dude on the cover, read the back and went 'Meh, let's try it.' It's a thick one and the first in its series, so we'll see if it was worthwhile.
4) Run into our resident Jarrad at one of the kiosks. Gah, he sucked me in on the whole perfume & cologne stuff. So we talked about how long the expensive but amazing shit lasts, and thank gawd HCB is a sucker for cologne. If anything, we know we can sucker him into it. Long story short though, Jarrad gave me three strip samples that I'm now going to use as bookmarks. My books are already smelling FANTASTIC from being in the same bag as those strips.....nah, that didn't sound strange at all. >.>
5) Had ribs at Ruby Tuesday tonight, also. Always amazing, amg. :) Such a highlight, that it only needs this very short blip.
6) Multitasking is my friendddd, particularly when managing some 4 conversations at the same time on Facebook. Which included one conversation about Chinese people; one about whether we could trust O'Gorman kids and when John was going to kill Dan in his sleep; one involving getting the courage to talk to HCB via annoying FB chat; and finally, yes getting the nerve to bother HCB, which turned into a conversation about how much drinking he did during break.
Ironically, the 'ya for sure' part wasn't what made me just a little bit giddy/amused. The most amusing part to me was that he sounded exactly like Aaron, saying he felt old. The again part just makes me giggle a little bit harder, but it's hearing him say that he felt old that made me think of Aaron and every time he says I make him feel old because I'm graduating, or entering college, or something.
And yeah, I'm pretty proud of coming up with the oops, you're still here, sorry! bit. Damn, I have a strange sense of humor... :P
7) Then there was this: http://sports.yahoo.com/nhl/blog/puck_daddy/post/Video-Watch-hockey-puck-split-in-half-on-shot-o?urn=nhl-303913
Why yes, I'm also proud that this was our SuFu Stampede team!! Even if we lost. But I'm used to that by now. And besides, it was against Sioux City. And guess who's the 14th drunkest city in America....Congrats, Sioux City. You still don't smell any better.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Impatient Little Me
1) Who just paid 60 bucks for an entire semester's worth of textbooks? Meeeeeeee!.....Of course, this will probably backfire when classes start up because two of my classes have yet to actually enter in what their textbooks are. Damnit. But ahh well, it's only two classes and will hopefully only require one per class. Hopefully. Crossing fingers...
2) I've yet to get Psych and True Blood in the mail yet. I am pissed. It said they would arrive between Dec. 31 and Jan. 5. Normally my packages arrive on the earlier side, regardless of whether it's USPS or UPS. And even if there was a holiday, it only cuts out the 1st & 2nd, so logically the three of the five days that have gone by were perfect options. Tomorrow's the last day, and then Target's getting a pissy email. >.>
3) I'm not a fan of the creepers. You know, that one guy who you haven't spoken to in forever, then at 2 in the morning says hello on Facebook chat. I feel retarded as it is for not removing the creepers, but they aren't doing any harm....just leaving random hello's at awkward hours of the night. Never the daytime, only at night. And don't think I've forgotten about you, creeper who added me all because I commented on a friend's status about Dr. Who. >.>
4) It feels weird to admit, but I kinda sorta miss him.
5) Speaking of which, Dr. Who scarf has commenced well so far, save for a couple mishaps. The first chunk of purple may be backwards from the rest, but in a classy way. It's also a good inch or two wider than it should be, but I was too lazy to account for the thicker yarn and needles. There comes a time where you just say screw it, I'mma gonna make it my way. :3
6) Finally, I want VS to finally stock their website with their pretty wine plaid coat. The website stalking is getting a little tiring, ya know....plus I'm not awake in the mornings to check. I'm afraid I may have already missed out on one opportunity for the XS size because I wasn't awake before noon. D:
Okay, I think I'm done. :)
2) I've yet to get Psych and True Blood in the mail yet. I am pissed. It said they would arrive between Dec. 31 and Jan. 5. Normally my packages arrive on the earlier side, regardless of whether it's USPS or UPS. And even if there was a holiday, it only cuts out the 1st & 2nd, so logically the three of the five days that have gone by were perfect options. Tomorrow's the last day, and then Target's getting a pissy email. >.>
3) I'm not a fan of the creepers. You know, that one guy who you haven't spoken to in forever, then at 2 in the morning says hello on Facebook chat. I feel retarded as it is for not removing the creepers, but they aren't doing any harm....just leaving random hello's at awkward hours of the night. Never the daytime, only at night. And don't think I've forgotten about you, creeper who added me all because I commented on a friend's status about Dr. Who. >.>
4) It feels weird to admit, but I kinda sorta miss him.
5) Speaking of which, Dr. Who scarf has commenced well so far, save for a couple mishaps. The first chunk of purple may be backwards from the rest, but in a classy way. It's also a good inch or two wider than it should be, but I was too lazy to account for the thicker yarn and needles. There comes a time where you just say screw it, I'mma gonna make it my way. :3
6) Finally, I want VS to finally stock their website with their pretty wine plaid coat. The website stalking is getting a little tiring, ya know....plus I'm not awake in the mornings to check. I'm afraid I may have already missed out on one opportunity for the XS size because I wasn't awake before noon. D:
Okay, I think I'm done. :)
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Such a Lovely Start to the New Year
Migraines suck. Particularly the part where I feel like stabbing myself in the forehead.
Anyhow, it's been quiet around here. Which is both extremely nice, and slightly sad. It's never fun when you don't feel productive, but I just keep reminding myself that this nothing time will disappear when I have to go back to Verm, so I'm taking advantage of it.
I don't like roller coasters. This migraine is kinda like a roller coaster, where I'm good for a time, then I have to curl up on the couch and just press my forehead against something hard. The roller coaster thing is back again with HCB. It's just so damn difficult between all of the good signs and the not-so-good signs. I also hate grabbing at straws, and I feel like the overanalyzing is going to put me over the edge. I've got everyone from all directions telling me that there are good signs. Sures is telling me not to doubt myself, my neighbor telling me that there's good chances....and for some reason these are the two that I trust the most. Sures is a good mutual friend, and my neighbor Aaron...well, Aaron's basically the slightly older (and married) version of HCB. If anyone knows the way HCB thinks, it would very likely be Aaron. So when he says that if HCB was willing to go for lunch when he's feeling like crap, then he'd be willing to go when he's feeling good...then I really should listen to him.
But it's still difficult as hell. I'm still afraid of competition that I can't stand up against. And it's nothing but a waiting game until HCB is back from break before I can even attempt to ask at another lunch.
I really, really hate waiting. :/
Like waiting for Psych season 4 and True Blood. Those would make the week go by faster, but noooo those haven't come yet. And still waiting for that coat to come back in stock so I can order it. Damnit.
Anyhow, it's been quiet around here. Which is both extremely nice, and slightly sad. It's never fun when you don't feel productive, but I just keep reminding myself that this nothing time will disappear when I have to go back to Verm, so I'm taking advantage of it.
I don't like roller coasters. This migraine is kinda like a roller coaster, where I'm good for a time, then I have to curl up on the couch and just press my forehead against something hard. The roller coaster thing is back again with HCB. It's just so damn difficult between all of the good signs and the not-so-good signs. I also hate grabbing at straws, and I feel like the overanalyzing is going to put me over the edge. I've got everyone from all directions telling me that there are good signs. Sures is telling me not to doubt myself, my neighbor telling me that there's good chances....and for some reason these are the two that I trust the most. Sures is a good mutual friend, and my neighbor Aaron...well, Aaron's basically the slightly older (and married) version of HCB. If anyone knows the way HCB thinks, it would very likely be Aaron. So when he says that if HCB was willing to go for lunch when he's feeling like crap, then he'd be willing to go when he's feeling good...then I really should listen to him.
But it's still difficult as hell. I'm still afraid of competition that I can't stand up against. And it's nothing but a waiting game until HCB is back from break before I can even attempt to ask at another lunch.
I really, really hate waiting. :/
Like waiting for Psych season 4 and True Blood. Those would make the week go by faster, but noooo those haven't come yet. And still waiting for that coat to come back in stock so I can order it. Damnit.
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